Five Minute Friday – Lonely

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Linking up with Lisa Jo again this week to participate in Five Minute Friday.

Today’s word is LONELY– ready, set go –

Yesterday I was going through the saved voice mails on my phone and suddenly her voice was there. It was during one of the last visits where I was able to see her alive.

“Have you landed at the airport yet?”……

We were both so excited for the visit, eager to spend even the weekend together sharing life. Because we knew we wouldn’t be given many more opportunities to do so.  So we shared a lifetime’s worth of love in a much shorter time.

It has been almost 3 years now.

And yet the lonely creeps in, especially when I hear that message again. A message I haven’t been able to erase because I don’t want to forget her. Forget how she sounded….a voice completely unique to her.

When you lose your best friend it is hard to “replace” that. I don’t know that I even want to fully replace it. But it is lonely when there isn’t “that person”, “that girlfriend” to share life with.

I may always live a bit of my life lonely for her. But I celebrate who she was, and hear her name every time I call out to my daughter…her life is such a big part of who I am, even today.  So I recognize that this lonely will be a part of me until we celebrate together at the feet of Jesus. And I thank God for the time we did have and that I was lucky enough to know her and love her.

Missing you friend….

Karlena 2

 

 

0 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday – Lonely

  1. Nancy Bouwens

    Kristen- to have a special friend… and to then… no longer. The place she filled and the emptiness which remains in her void.
    Friendships are a unique collection of memories and moments- gifted to us by Abba Father… thankful for her impact in your life-

    Blessings- Nanxy

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  2. Alecia

    I’m sorry for the loss of your friend. I keep old msg’s from my grandmother and all of her handwritten notes bc I know that she won’t live forever (though I pray she does) and I never want to forget her voice.
    Blessings, friend.

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  3. Mel

    Such a sweet tribute to your friend…beautiful words today. Keeping the voicemail is something I would do, too…and that’s ok. 🙂 Thank you for celebrating your memories with us today. Blessings, dear friend. 🙂

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  4. Sarah E

    I knew within the first sentence of your post that you were talking about Karlena. I can only imagine how difficult your loss has been. I would imagine that the lonely for her will never completely disappear, but will be a constant reminder of what you have to look forward to in heaven! Thinking of you today!

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